Dear Readers,

I know it has been a while since I last posted. I am very thrilled to announce major changes in my life. One being the great opportunity to learn of the Lord. I have never felt so in tune with my self. It is so ironic how as human beings we break all the rules because we feel that somehow it will still get us to where we need to go. Truth is one must ultimately learn to conform. I am very fortunate to have found the Lord at a time in my life where I had no major need of anything. I wasn't sick or poor. My life seemed to be complete...(I mean as complete as it could be). The Lord was reintroduced to me this past summer. It was a friday night and I was at work, the gentlemen said do you believe in the Lord, and I sarcastically responded... See I was raised a strict Catholic, I was forced to go to church every Sunday, every Tuesday, prayer was an everyday affair. Yet my life was miserable, I lived in an abusive home, my grandmother was a neourotic who hated me 90 percent of the time. My idea of God became distorted, how can the Lord exists and so many people in pain? I still don't know the answer, all I know is that he is God and that he reveals himself daily, in ways that I cannot even discribe. My life is worth living now that I have guidance, I have support. God is teaching me truth, he is teaching me paitince, he is teaching me the proper methods to attain my personal goals. The mental and intrinsic dots are slowly connecting. This is the thing, I have been brought up in an instant gratification society, it either works now of never, I either love you or hate you, now now now now. When you walk within the Lord you realize process. Process has been one of the most valuable things my life has taught me. Everything has process. Process cannot be rushed or compromised. I have never loved properly...I just didn't know how. I would have never thought in a million years to have the great opportunity to blog about my relationship with God. The fact that I fall in love with him more and more on a daily basis, although there are times I get frustrated for not knowing or become scared that I am failling short, all I have to do is open my bible and there is his words to show me the way.

I hope that anyone who reads this will understand the circumstances of how I came to know him. I pray that more people will let the opportunity of Gods love to enter there life. I promise it will not be instant. however it will be everlasting.

God blessings
FK